anyone know why my new pic won't show up in thumbnail form on y'all's pages? or is it there, just not to me?
anyone?
also... well... excited! i'm decorating in my head. that place is gonna be fan-fuckin-tastic :-)
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
comeback
like i'm mickey rourke or something. no no no. just a neglectful blogger returning after a three month drought.
i got engaged since then. and my fiance and i are actively pursuing home-ownership. it's not like i had nothing to blog about. i'm just lazy and completely uninspired. like... when i'm happy i have nothing to write about. which i guess explains why all great authors, artists, and musicians were crazy/depressed/psychotic/etc. not that i'm a great artist, but... i get it.
so, updates ~~~
engagement/wedding: jan 25, 2009. i come home from a volleyball match (we won) only to complain about how i tend to ruin things. i had just picked a fight after a perfectly lovely weekend and for no discernable reason and i was feeling miserable. so i was whining. my wonderful boyfriend calmed me down and decided it would be a good idea for me to check under the bed (sidenote: lately, i've been absurdly scared of basically everything... including mysteries under the bed). i thought this was a ridiculous plan. it was too early, everyone knows there is nothing scary under the bed until after 10 pm. he dragged me over and knelt down, i knelt with him. i thought we were checking together. silly, but cute. he pops back up with little black box in his hand (and tears in his eyes, but i'm not supposed to share that). then... we were engaged. that was a good night.
wedding plans are in the idea-gathering phase. we have a wedding party (yay, ladies! ha!), and a color (kelly green, what else), and a tentative date (labor day weekend 2010). but since it's so far away i can't get myself excited and am therefore only collecting pictures from magazines and clicking through theknot.com. although not as i often as i like, but it seems to make my work computer freeze and that's never a good thing. because then i can't get on facebook. and then what happens?!
house: i'm hesitant to say too much because i don't want to jinx it. we have put an offer in on one house, but it's bank-owned and, despite hearing that our offer looked good, approval can take 6 months. no thank you. the search continues... there are very viable possibilites. kelley is excited :-)
job: I HATE MY JOB. perhaps that's why the inspiration has come back. i never knew i could be this miserable 9 hours a day. there is so little 'scope for the imagination' here. and when i say so little, i mean, none. the only creative decisions i get to make are which color marker to use for highlighting my ship list and labelling tags. and it smells... and the light gives me a headache... and the people... i used to like some of them. and truly, i still do. but i don't get to see any of them since i changed positions. i will never ever again accept a new position simply for the money. i hate it. and i hated the last job, but this one is worse. i work too fast, i'm too smart for it. which sounds terrible, and is probably terrible to think, but it's true. i use about 15% of my total brain power on this job. i can feel unused cells dying. and i have no creative outlet since i'm not doing starlight this summer (not a regret) but i feel like i have nothing to keep my creative juices flowing. so joe thinks i should write, but by the time i get home, i'm so drained from doing absolutely nothing that the last thing i want to do is think. and i truly believe that once we get a house i can decorate, and paint, and design, and cook in, and whatever, i will feel better. but will i even have the energy to tackle the projects i want when i get home? because i feel right now that there is no way. the problem starts and ends with the job. it has to go. now isn't the best time, what with a mortgage staring me in the face. but it absolutely has to go. so as soon as we close... well, i'm already looking. but not too actively, since the searching i do is while i'm here at work. but i'm creative, intelligent, and hyper-organized. i should be running a beading store or something, so i could be my own boss, lay everything out the way i want, create display pieces all day. i have accounting experience. this probably isn't the best time in my life, or in the world, to start a business tho. option 2 is going back to school to get my t-cert. this is very appealing. also, not very lucrative. but the research into both options has begun, and if anyone has any ideas or leads, i will entertain most anything.
choreography: my latest creative outlet was choreographing belvidere hs's footloose. and it was amazing. not the show, and probably not my choreogrpahy. but the experience... i loved it. i want to do it more. it was such a great little extra cash experience. and i just... loved it. creative passion flowing! what a revelation lately!!!
death: death insisted on touching my life recently and it was not welcome. and as someone with a pretty awesome case of anxiety... not cool, you know?
picture: i finally have a pic on this page! it thought you all would be impressed :-)
i got engaged since then. and my fiance and i are actively pursuing home-ownership. it's not like i had nothing to blog about. i'm just lazy and completely uninspired. like... when i'm happy i have nothing to write about. which i guess explains why all great authors, artists, and musicians were crazy/depressed/psychotic/etc. not that i'm a great artist, but... i get it.
so, updates ~~~
engagement/wedding: jan 25, 2009. i come home from a volleyball match (we won) only to complain about how i tend to ruin things. i had just picked a fight after a perfectly lovely weekend and for no discernable reason and i was feeling miserable. so i was whining. my wonderful boyfriend calmed me down and decided it would be a good idea for me to check under the bed (sidenote: lately, i've been absurdly scared of basically everything... including mysteries under the bed). i thought this was a ridiculous plan. it was too early, everyone knows there is nothing scary under the bed until after 10 pm. he dragged me over and knelt down, i knelt with him. i thought we were checking together. silly, but cute. he pops back up with little black box in his hand (and tears in his eyes, but i'm not supposed to share that). then... we were engaged. that was a good night.
wedding plans are in the idea-gathering phase. we have a wedding party (yay, ladies! ha!), and a color (kelly green, what else), and a tentative date (labor day weekend 2010). but since it's so far away i can't get myself excited and am therefore only collecting pictures from magazines and clicking through theknot.com. although not as i often as i like, but it seems to make my work computer freeze and that's never a good thing. because then i can't get on facebook. and then what happens?!
house: i'm hesitant to say too much because i don't want to jinx it. we have put an offer in on one house, but it's bank-owned and, despite hearing that our offer looked good, approval can take 6 months. no thank you. the search continues... there are very viable possibilites. kelley is excited :-)
job: I HATE MY JOB. perhaps that's why the inspiration has come back. i never knew i could be this miserable 9 hours a day. there is so little 'scope for the imagination' here. and when i say so little, i mean, none. the only creative decisions i get to make are which color marker to use for highlighting my ship list and labelling tags. and it smells... and the light gives me a headache... and the people... i used to like some of them. and truly, i still do. but i don't get to see any of them since i changed positions. i will never ever again accept a new position simply for the money. i hate it. and i hated the last job, but this one is worse. i work too fast, i'm too smart for it. which sounds terrible, and is probably terrible to think, but it's true. i use about 15% of my total brain power on this job. i can feel unused cells dying. and i have no creative outlet since i'm not doing starlight this summer (not a regret) but i feel like i have nothing to keep my creative juices flowing. so joe thinks i should write, but by the time i get home, i'm so drained from doing absolutely nothing that the last thing i want to do is think. and i truly believe that once we get a house i can decorate, and paint, and design, and cook in, and whatever, i will feel better. but will i even have the energy to tackle the projects i want when i get home? because i feel right now that there is no way. the problem starts and ends with the job. it has to go. now isn't the best time, what with a mortgage staring me in the face. but it absolutely has to go. so as soon as we close... well, i'm already looking. but not too actively, since the searching i do is while i'm here at work. but i'm creative, intelligent, and hyper-organized. i should be running a beading store or something, so i could be my own boss, lay everything out the way i want, create display pieces all day. i have accounting experience. this probably isn't the best time in my life, or in the world, to start a business tho. option 2 is going back to school to get my t-cert. this is very appealing. also, not very lucrative. but the research into both options has begun, and if anyone has any ideas or leads, i will entertain most anything.
choreography: my latest creative outlet was choreographing belvidere hs's footloose. and it was amazing. not the show, and probably not my choreogrpahy. but the experience... i loved it. i want to do it more. it was such a great little extra cash experience. and i just... loved it. creative passion flowing! what a revelation lately!!!
death: death insisted on touching my life recently and it was not welcome. and as someone with a pretty awesome case of anxiety... not cool, you know?
picture: i finally have a pic on this page! it thought you all would be impressed :-)
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