twilight.

i read it basically in one weekend. and even though i said i didn't want to spend money on them, i went and bought new moon and started that as well.

plus, joe wanted me to find a book for him in another vampire series (the one that awful true blood show is based on) so i spent some quality time at borders searching for the inevitable 'vampire' table. and there wasn't one! there was a twilight half-table. and that had tshirts, and lacked whatever the third book is (eclipse?). strange indeed. also that last one isn't in paperback that i could find, and im certainly not buying any of these in hardcover, so just fyi... i may need a loaner in a week or two.

btw, how anna paquin won a golden globe for true blood is beyond me. thats a horrible show. its like 'heroes' bad. or worse, 'knight rider' bad. the new one. with the guy who used to be on all my children and billy from bsg. its really really terrible.

and her dress wasn't even pretty. so there.

lunch.

i think a lunchtime blog might become routine with me. or middle of the afternoon. or morning. i hated this job at first because it kept me so busy, but now that i have the hang of it, im just as bored as i was before. only now, i have a higher chance of getting caught slacking off because people come into my office more.

with the higher risk comes a higher salary, so i suppose its worth it.

next week im dogsitting while my parents are on their cruise. i HATE spending a night alone anywhere. over the past year, ive become more than a little anxious and paranoid, and when im alone in the apartment, i cant sleep. one friday night i drove up to my parents' house at 1 am because joe was gone and i couldnt sleep. its pathetic. i make joe check under the bed at night. i check the space between the furnace and the wall in our laundry room before i take out my contacts. the closet in the extra room. behind the shower curtain every time i go to pee. paranoia. and next week i get to deal with a whole huge house.

needless to say you can probably expect some late-night blogging next week.

i will have a dog. a dog who barks at strange things. he cant protect me in the least, but he can warn me. thats something. and ill have sleeping pills. lots of them, most likely. but if any of the two people who read this blog want to volunteer to spend a night with me, i will willingly accept. i know i need to do this, and that once i get through next week, ill be proud of myself and feel much better about taking care of myself. but i dont see the need to spend EVERY night alone. one or two should cut it.

but... i may be super busy next week, so i wont be home til 930-10ish anyway. and i go to sleep around 10 every night, so whats the point of coming up just to sleep? i would feel pretty stupid asking my friends to do that. i already feel stupid about all this.

i dont know yet how busy ill be. but i hope to be busy. more on that later i guess.

ok, i feel rediculous. and i could really use a napkin for the pizza im eating, so i guess im out.

work.

well, i have stuff to do. so im leaving.

earlier i had nothing to do and i stayed.

that about sums up work for me :-)